After announcing her new visual album Kissing Death earlier this week, MOTHICA has unleashed the first video of her new era, “Doomed.” Kissing Death arrives on August 23 via Heavy Heart Records. You can pre-order the the LP here.
“This is a twisted, surreal version of my origin story,” MOTHICA shared of her upcoming record. “This is for the younger version of me who romanticized death for a decade, and the lasting impact it had on me as I searched for an easier, softer way to exist.” In fact, the artist promises a new song and video will arrive every three weeks.
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The new track sees MOTHICA sharing painful glimpses into her past over shoegaze-laced instrumentals and yearning vocals. Prepare to grab some tissues.
“I think ‘Doomed‘ is a sibling of my song ‘Forever Fifteen‘. It’s a melancholy ballad and has this shoegaze influence at the end of the song that swells up with intensity,” Mothica explains.
“I’ve heard people talk about gifted child syndrome, or about feeling like a disappointment compared to the accolades they were given as a young kid and I didn’t know other people felt the same way,” she says. Check out the full music video below, and see how many scene posters you can catch throughout the visuals.
She dives further into the track sharing, “I was a smart kid with a bright future. Sometimes I feel like my depression sabotaged some of that light I had. In the second verse, I open up about my experience in my church youth group and my abusive youth pastor. When I was just coming out of middle school, I was awkward and insecure. I hoped church would be a safe place to make friends but I was tak[en] advantage of at my most vulnerable.”
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MOTHICA says, “I wish I could go back and protect myself from some of the things I went through. It was incredibly therapeutic to recreate my teenage bedroom for the music video. I casted my friend to play a younger version of me, adorned in 2009 emo warped tour era posters, and show this angsty misunderstood girl. I am terrified to put this song out, but I showed the ending to my therapist and she teared up so I felt like this was an important song to lead the album with. It feels like a small sliver of my origin story.”
